hanging in there
2008-02-17

How long has it been since my last update? Ages, I bet.

Well, we've been sick and all that. You name it..its came our way. Ok, mostly the flu and head cold, chest cold.

Logan has been awful depressed. Its been awkward. Especially, with Jeremy around.

We(Jeremy & me) had this enduring discussion which might have been an ugly heart to heart. We almost got back together, but we didn't. Considering Logan's state and all.

I mean, he's friends with him while Jeremy and I are not exactly friends. We're working on that part.

And I guess I got a little angry over..how come they can stay friends and we can't.

So he hasn't completely forgotten me. I haven't forgotten him. Best we just stay away from each other. Nothing happened.

Who knows, maybe its the winter blues.

But if Logan has more structure day today, it helps. I think. He was on auto-pilot for awhile with World of Warcraft. And I guess I phased him out as much as he did me.

But we're back to talking it out, and really doing things together like cooking, cleaning..all that mundane stuff.

I'm not saying its perfect. The weather is still cold and colder which doesn't help.

I'm hoping we can do some traveling soon. Like a trip to Kansas City. Thats where all my co-workers say we should go. I really want to see Mount Rushmore this summer. I doubt we go, but maybe.

Work has had its ups and downs too. Like one day they don't want you to stay late and the next its like "how many more hours do you think you can stick around for?" Its crazy with deadlines and what not. You know, lets make a mountain out of a mole hill. And to make matters worse, they can only tell you what you are not doing right, not ever what you are doing right. Which stinks. Guess I'm not as hard as I should be from all the crap I get from supervisors and whatever.

I was crying in the women's restroom over some such thing that wasn't quite right, and this co-worker came in to check on me. She just said, "Thats their job, don't take it too seriously. Just hang in there."

And I am. I really am.