fading
2007-03-21

Its been forever since I've updated here.

And I'm still wondering if I should update here. Or just let it go?

1. I'm really confused at the moment.
2. I'm not sure if I'm making the best decisions lately with one person. Or maybe thats two different people.
3. a part of me just wants to know if he's really what I want.

But do I really want to go through with it? Do I just want to hurt Jeremy.

I've been reading through this diary wondering how many times now I told Logan, no.

I didn't want it to fuck up our friendship. But it doesn't feel like one anymore.

Is it my fault the way he is? Does he hate me as much as he says he wants me?

Even a year ago, he wasn't like this. He's not who I remember.

But am I even who I remember?