the best & the worst
2006-07-14

Ok, I officially put Logan down as my best guy friend because thats what he is.

The best.

We can talk about everything and anything which I'm not sure I'm really at that point with Jeremy. I mean, I want to be, but I don't know. Its like I'm afraid I might frighten him, you know. Like he'll decide, "Oh my god, she is crazy." Which might be true. I sometimes think. Of course, not as crazy as in a sense as that girl from "Strangers with Candy", but you know what I mean.

And well....

Last night, I saw Eric.

Nothing happened. Other than the fact he's not speaking to me anymore.

1. he saw me with Jeremy and well, it was a little too cuddly for Eric and..

2. later, he gave me the 3rd degree. like, I was his girlfriend or something.

3. so yeah, it got almost into a shouting match how I didn't wait for him and...

4. damn, he's so needy. he is. I'm sick of his attitude. he's clingy. he really is...but..

a. he didn't call.
b. didn't try at all to tell me about the problems with him Mom down in Kansas.
c. its like I'm supposed to drop everything for him.

5. well, i'm not. I'm just not.

and..and I really like things with Jeremy. I can't just ..and it gets all terribly upsetting to think I have to tell Jeremy all this crap with Eric. Cause I don't know what he'd think. And I don't want the drama. I just am not going to.

Besides, he treats me like a girlfriend. And he really makes me feel like I have boyfriend now. He takes care of my car. He wants to know the people I know. He wants to be seen with me.

I just don't have time to be miserable right now.