its the little things
2006-06-24

Its strange. Its not high school anymore, but then its sad, as well. Cause everyone I seem to know is on vacation or getting ready for something, but me.

And I know its me. I know it is. And I'm not sure there is anything I can do about it.

Its just, I didn't know it would happen. Especially, to me. And the thing is, maybe its been happening for a long time...and I just didn't know.

Of course, it might help if I look at the big picture. Stop this nonsense. Get a plan. Maybe a new hairstyle.

Ok, maybe not..cause I passed by these little girls yesterday on my walk to work and they yelled at me, "Hey, I love your hair."

Ok, that was nice. That was sweet.

Its those little moments, I just want to savor. You know, the sun shining through the trees. The quietness in the neighborhood and their cherry voices.

I got to get in the right mind set. I gotta forge on. Somehow.

But I get scared when I come face to face with some things. Like I know I'll make the wrong decision no matter what it is.

You know what I really need? A fingernail clippers. God, my nails just get worse and worse. I never have time to do my nails.