I know I should be kidding, huh?
2006-06-18

Its hot and cloudy. But Ryan says it won't rain.

It rained a little last night. Just a bit. The street was like a river out front for at least ten minutes. It hasn't rained like that in a while.

I helped Mom clean up on the apartment. I can't believe we had so much stuff. Still left. Still to clean.

Its exhausting. Maybe this is just what I need right now, you know. Time to think.

Guess Logan is doing ok. He hasn't had anymore seizures. And he did go to the doctor. So he's on meds for that now.

He thought he was going to have to quit his job, but he hasn't.

I'm not so sure he's really that crazy about Hannah anymore. I think he's beginning to see the light.

But then again, maybe Sebastian saw the light too...about me. And well, at least Hannah doesn't know that yet. I don't think. She's being all attentive and shit about Logan's problem. Which totally sickens me.

I could be freak'n wrong about his feelings for her. Maybe he's just totally still in love with her. I hope not.

Ok, maybe I just want him to be in the same state I am. You know. And I know thats not being a very good friend and all. But thats what I think. And I shouldn't think it. Don't want too. But then it feels good to think that maybe..maybe they are over too. And..and maybe by the 4th he'll be totally free of her, and we could just hang out then.

Yeah, just hang out. Thats all I want to do.