locks for luv guy
2005-09-18

I can't remember if I ever wrote Locks for Luv guy's name. I'm just going to call him Lou. He kind of makes me think of Lou Taylor Pucci, anyway.

He's just fasinating, you know. Locks for Luv guy. In a way. And yeah, maybe I do want to go out with him, but then maybe not.

Strange huh?

Ok, maybe its this...

1. I don't feel good enough about myself to go out with him. I really feel he needs to be with someone who's totally just like him. Like a virgin, perhaps. Which I'm not. Only we haven't exactly talked about that. But you just know he's not like me. I can somehow just sense it.

2. I daydream that he'll be a missionary someday on missions that'll help millions. I just can't see me there, you know. Every step of the way with him.

3. He's really sweet.

Only...

God, this guy gives the best hugs. I don't know what it is about him. You meet, you hug. And he just hugs you all over. And his smile just becomes yours. He leaves and its like a fantastic ending.

Its like I really want to connect with him on a mental level, but then it hits me. He's so sexy. And I wish I wouldn't think that. Especially, when I really trying to stay focused on all he says and I just start staring at parts of him and feel like a real asshole.

What if he's actually like nothing in my daydreams?