Eric
2005-08-21

I'm not so sure about Spence's new roommate. I guess thats what you'd call him. Actually, Spence is just the roommate, because he's renting out Eric's grandpa's room.

Eric lives there with his Mom. He's like twenty-something. And he just seems sad. Even when his girlfriend is around.

Or its just, he stares at me. Like all the time, but then I have to think...is it me who's staring at him all the time?

I don't mean, too. Even if it is sort of hard not to notice him with all that dark curly hair and dark eyes. He's just sexy. You know, thats it. He's sexy, and I think he knows it. He has to know it.

But get this, he's in a very "asexual" relationship. Well, thats what his girlfriend calls it. Michelle. She's kind of odd.

She went in to all this big discussion about it. You'd think they went to asexual conventions are something. But you just know, he's had to have sex with her. The way he looks at her. And then the way he looks at me, gives me this vibe that he'd have sex with me in a heartbeat.

Now I know, I'm coming off, I don't know, "Oh, everybody wants to jump my bones..." But thats not what I mean. Its just... the signal is there. And I feel like I've got to keep my guard up. I wouldn't want to be alone with him.

I mean, I'm trying not to send him signals I'm really not. And thats cool, the whole "asexual" thing where you don't need sex, etc. And how relationships are so much more from staying in touch on the phone or the pc, etc.

I just like it better when Spence is over at my place. Kind of. Except, there's Mom, who's I don't know.

Can't she just keep her mouth shut?

Like last night, she's so nosey. She ask so many questions about where Spence is living and how he likes it. I don't know why she has to put us through 20 questions.

And then she says I get all snappy. And then Spence has to say something like, "Don't you think you're being a little mean to your Mom?"

Then I have to be all nice to her, for his sake.

And then I start to think, you know, what would happen if Eric and I were ever alone? Would he be talking about all that "Asexual stuff" like Michelle does?

I gotta shake that thought. I can't go there.